Today I Ate My Feelings

Today I ate my feelings.

Did I enjoy what I ate? Not really.

Do I think I'll do it again? Probably.

There's one thing I'm adamant about doing as I share my journey to health, and that is being real.

No-one is perfect.

It's been an emotional week.

And, yes, I know I have said there are no excuses, but there are reasons...

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Today I made a choice to eat the cake. It wasn't the best choice I could have made, but I'm not going to beat myself up.

I'm learning as I travel on this journey. I'm learning to feel my feelings rather than eating them, but today I let an old habit slip back in. And, that's okay. 

For years and years I beat myself up for not being perfect. I criticised and berated myself time and time again. I don't do that now. Instead I show myself compassion and love. None of us need to be our own critic, we need to support ourselves and actively love who we are. 

If we can treat ourselves as we treat others (providing we treat them well that is), our experience of the world will be so different. 

Now, rather than eating more food I don't need or telling myself what a failure I am because I chose to eat cake when it wasn't on my plan, I'm sitting here writing this blog post whilst listening to Relaxing Music for Stress Relief on YouTube. On the way home from my outing I had a good cry, I sobbed, and with that came a sense of release and a calmness followed.

Later, I will journal about my feelings. For the rest of the day, I will eat what is on my plan. 

Namaste x